emerging for a moment

Sometimes… silence is the worst option.

It’s so hard not to have a voice when there is so much emotion and so much change happening. At first, silence feels like a most natural and appropriate reaction to grief and to entering into the unknown…. and then how quickly it can swallow you up if you’ve denied yourself the connections you need. I’ve discovered over the last several months and now even more in the last week what tremendous relief there is in being heard. Feeling understood. How valuable the daily human-to-human connections we make are. I’ve discovered how much I need those connections, and how suffocated and isolated I feel without them.

I feel the stongest urge to express the huge spectrum of emotions that have flooded our home this week; discouragement, grief, anger, helplessness, worry, fear, saddness, powerlessness….  gratitude, relief, hope, empathy, compassion, selflessness, love…

There has been such an overwhelming response in our community from people who wish to support and love Jackie and her children through this crisis, both short and long term, and I am just so relieved and grateful.

Thank you so much for sending your kind words of love and your sympathy to Jackie over at her blog. This global community never ceases to give me hope. You’ve all helped me so much with your wise and loving words in the past, during some of my own deepest, darkest times, and I’ll always be so grateful!! There is nothing richer or more meaningful than witnessing human beings in their most natural state of compassion – sharing deep concern and love for others in need.

Here at big and little, April will be all about the expression of emotion, and the gratitude I feel for all the little things in my life that add up to mean something bigger. It will be an exercise of taking personal stock of these things over the next month, and hopefully taking photos that express them as well to keep in our family journal, and to share here.

I am so thankful for this place, as it provides for me an opportunity to put my emotions out there in a different, much needed way.

 

Love to you all.

Krista

   

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